Monday, January 3, 2011

My Life & My Issues (Rant)

I know this is a bit of a rant but what good is a blog if I can't get things off my chest sometimes... if I don't get this out of my head I'm gonna scream!! Well so far 2011 ain't lookin so good.... we got up today and ordered online a new radiator we needed for our truck.... and it cost us $115.53 we had to get 2 gallons of antifreeze at $25.16 all because our radiator has been leaking for months. After we got all this Joe and ma got stuck in town today Joe cleaned out the carburetor to find water,when he came home and cleaned it out and found the oil had water in it. We looked up online and found out that the head gaskets are gone and due to us continuing to drive it the thing is about totaled the engine that is from what we found. So now our truck is no good my moms car has been set up through the winter because of problems. Lucky enough we were able to cancel the order for the radiator and when we can get back to the store get our money back for the antifreeze but we are still left without a vehicle.

We are so hoping one way or another to maybe get my ma's car fixed we called this local mechanic and he is supposed to come out tomorrow and see if he can fix the issues. I'm praying to god that we can get her car on the road cause we live out of town with no one who can give us a ride anywhere. I live 20 minutes away from the town I grew up in and sadly where all our friends who could help us live. Ok so with all these problems on top of it had planned to try to start my diet this month but not sure how I'm even gonna get to the store to get groceries when let along get slim fast...

Not too mention dealin with the issues of last year bein told that I have PCOS (Poly Cystic Ovarian Syndrome) and not to be personal but haven't had a period in almost a year so my body is retaining alot of fluid. So seriously was even more depressed today when I stepped on the new scale and it said overload got to love seein that so as it stands because of so much fluid retaining I'm standing at 400lbs. Now I'm not sure very many understand I'm not fat as far as fat weight I have fluid weight more which is actually worse for you yet can't afford to go to a OBGYN. Kind of scared to it on top of that I'm 29yrs old and they said if the birth control pills I tried last year didn't work which they didn't that the next step was a hysterectomy. I have always wanted kids and due to all that will never have any either.

Anyways guess I'll end this rant for now but I just needed to get this out hope ya'll don't mind.... My luck is so bad I wouldn't have any luck it all if it ain't bad luck!



10 amazing comments:

Isis said...

Rant all you want, it feels good to get it out sometime. I'll be doing it tomorrow as well, unless I wake up in a positive mood.

joder said...

Feel free to vent all you want. We're here for you and I'm sending you all sorts of good vibes. Of course with all the bad stuff that has--and continues to happen--to me and my family, I probably won't be any help to you.

I can say though, that I feel your pain and hope for better for you soon.

EmmysBoosAndRawrs said...

Sorry to hear about all that. Hope things look up for you soon.

Tore said...

Dany I understand completely. I just was diagnosed with it also. I am going to get a second opinion in John Hopkins. I just keep putting on the weight. There are other ways to treat it. Do some research on the internet. I am going to look some more also. I think there are some natural ways too. If you would like to talk, please feel free to email me anytime. I really do understand. Victoria Zumbrum

Hollywood Glamorous said...

Blogs are the perfect place for us rant and let things off our chests. Do not be sorry, we all do it :)

I'm very sorry to hear about this, I do want you to know that you will be in my prayers.

Please put yourself first, friend. Unlike a broken truck/car your health is something you cannot put off, especially at this stage. Yes, I do the same; I think we all put our health on the back burner so to speak. It is vital that we know when to move it to the front and I do believe with your situation it needs to be looked into. I say that with love in my heart for the friend you have been to me.

Yes, money may be an issue at present and you're not alone. However, with the water retention and the pressure from such on other vital organs the problem is quite serious. If you can you can attempt to go to a local hospital and regardless of money and health insurance they *must* treat you. Do not worry now about that bill, worry later. If you need me please email.

Amanda
hollywood.geek.chic@gmail.com

Cake Mom said...

Hope things look up for you soon. Maybe all your bad luck is getting out of the way earlier in the year so the rest of 2011 will look up for you!

CathyH said...

I know it's tough, but try to stay positive. It seems to help. Totally with ya though, sometimes it feels like we're not going to make it!

Misfit Momma aka Missy said...

Hope you are able to get things figured out soon! Please take care of yourself!

I'm without a vehicle right now too, I'm in the city so it isn't so bad but people are getting annoyed at me having to ask for a ride so a lot of things are being put off just because I don't want to ask.

Alicia C. said...

I have been trying to think of a reply to this post since I read it in my email yesterday. I can't say "I understand" because I've noy been in your place. I have, however, been in that place where nothing ever goes right. Just when things start looking bright again, everything takes a big sh** on your parade and they're worse than before. I stopped looking forward to the new year because I was placing my hopes too highly only to be disappointed over and over.

Well, after over a decade of this, things are progressively getting better. I hope the same happens to you. I wish I had a big pot of coffee and a car (no, we haven't had one for 2 1/2 years, now!) I'd be down in NC listening to every one of your problems. Sometimes just having someone who listens to you can make all of the difference. Keep your rants up (maybe make it a weekly feature?) It'll help you get things off your chest and may even lead to a few ideas you didn't think of! I read some of the comments here already and it sounds as if there are people who can help you out with the medical stuff. Maybe someone who knows of a low- to no-cost doctor you can see in your area?

Well, I know this is all a lot of blah, blah, blah from me. Please keep us posted. There are some out here who really care and are willing to listen and maybe even help out when we can!

Danyale N. said...

i want to thank each and everyone one of you for your kind words and support it really does mean alot to me and it does make things a little better knowing others outside my home care. I will keep everyone updated on everything and will be posting a update this weekend hopefully. although i would love to address each and everyone one of you in this post it would be too long just know though that all ya'lls words meant alot to me. <> >:D<